I should have, if I could have, if I knew how--but didn't. Am willing to learn, am able to learn, need very much to know so very much. Look good, feel good, am good but could be great.

The neighborhood was boring. If mother had a car and if I had had a mentor; if my grandmother who lived with us wouldn't have instilled in everyone's mind, "don't worry--she will grow up and get married and then she will be okay and have everything" but neither Alan (Butch) Lundy or Stephen Shoap knew that my grandmother wanted them to marry me. I dated a lot but was not street smart and dating was a lot of fun until I came home and then I would panic.