David Lipschitz
It seems a long time since I have much to say to my classmates. Soon after our last Zoom meeting I was diagnosed with Covid that was minor. A few weeks later developed rigors, a high fever and was admitted to hospital for two days. A large consolidation was noted in the left lower lobe of my left lung which was thought to be either recurrent cancer, an adverse effect of the therapy for renal cell cancer or a pneumonia. After a worrisome 6 weeks it turns out to have been pneumonia, perhaps related to Covid. Was I relieved. Since then developed severe side effect from the oral immuntherapeutic agent that included malignant hypertension, severe glossitis and mucositis, severe diarrhea, worsening fatigue and a 4 day period where I lost the function of my right leg. The latter most likely is caused by severe spinal stenosis. And since stopping the oral med (Inlyta) I feel like a new person.
The purpose of this post was to offer my thoughts about those who stayed and those of us who elected to leave South Africa.. Some time ago I wrote a message honoring and saluting Faouk Dindar and what I said then summarizes my thoughts about leaving. Here is the message to Farouk again. I have highlighted in bold my thoughts about leaving. In summary I have deep regrets about leaving even though I would never have had the opportunities in South Africa that were affored to me in the United States. In summary I now view myself as a taker who took and took as much as I could be feed my ambition and carreer but have in turn given very little back.
A SALUTE TO DR. DINDAR
Dear Dr, Dindar, I address you by your last name as a measure of my high regard and deep respect for you. Am sure you don’t mind that I use your first name from now on. The history of your life as a medical student and physician in Southern Africa was an absolute inspiration for me and my family. Your life in South Africa was full of insults, severe racism, and the threat of physical violence. As one of the few people of color you are a true pioneer, and your commitment to actively enter the struggle against sinister and criminal overt racism makes you one of the true heroes of our class. It is so sad that you were forced to leave.
Your story filled me with a sense of regret as I compared my life to yours. I grew up as a Jewish white South African with a silver spoon in my mouth. Even as a Jew I experienced no discrimination during my time as a medical student and physician in South Africa. Thank goodness I was the son of an immigrant whose only passionate demand was that I work hard to achieve through education the kind of opportunity that he never had access to. My father always said "I want my son to be a doctor". It is this demand that led me to work extremely hard and to take advantage of the opportunities made available to me. Both in South Africa and in America I took and took and took but gave little back.
And yet in my twilight years I deeply regret not giving more back. I describe myself as a taker, Farouk you on the other hand are a giver. And now in my old age I envy you and wish that I had given back to South Africa, had participated in the struggle against Apartheid and most importantly that I had known you better and supported you more.
The same regret exists about my naiveté in regard to America’s problems that only became apparent to me with the rise of Donald Trump and the death of George Floyd. Sinister and reprehensible racism that has reared its ugly head in America and systemic racism has become mainstream and threatens opportunities and risk of violence among people of color. Once again, I have done nothing but sit in an armchair and as a token of my guilt given money to the causes, I am passionate about.
Farouk this little note is to honor you specifically but also to salute others who have stayed in South Africa and have diligently given back to make South Africa a better place.
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