Susan Frank
Hi from Susan Frank.
I was planning on being with you tonight. I may now not be attending. This is actually good news. Here is why.
My adult cousin was at the parade with her 14 year old daugher who was performing in it. The daughter and husband were at one end of the parade route and my cousin was by the corner where the shooting occured. She hid behind a tree to avoid the bullets and then ran. Moments of terror when she could not find her child and husband and was convinced of the worst. They did find one another, were physically unhurt and returned home. Emotionally, my cousin is very traumatized. During the week she felt that she would never leave her house again.
We had been planning for a few months to take a weekend trip together and to leave tomorrow, the 14th. It looked like that plan was not going to happen and of course, I would do anything to support my cousin and assured her it was fine to postpone or cancel.
To my surprise she decided she does want to go - almost feels as if she has to go to overcome her fear. We are driving away so she feels she will be safe - and we are going to a peaceful place to gaze at water. We will convince ourselves that it will be safe where we are going. I know that is not true now - we all know if a mass shooting can happen in our town, well....you know the rest of that thought.
Actually, it probably is very safe.
I am depressed and angry at the murderer and our country and staggered by the loss of lives and injuries.
If I have the energy after finishing the preparations for leaving, I may be at the vigil tonight. I had been looking forward to being with my classmates tonight to talk about the trauma - but now focusing on this nice little trip and getting ready to be with my cousin is turning out to be helpfull.
I will stream it if I can't be there. Love bagpipes - you'll hear them playing at the vigil. Makes me cry. Have been doing alot of that as of late.
My regards to all of you.
Susan. 
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